To the ones who matter, they shall understand

I make inappropriate jokes, both in content and in timing. I have a really loud laugh. I like to send 7 text messages instead of 1. I call people at random times for random reasons. I’m loud. I’m somewhat of a spaz. Many a time, I don’t care what other people think. I’m forgetful, and I don’t always pay attention. I am messy. I complain about things I can change. I can be impulsive. I catastrophize.

I am unapologetically me.

We spend so much of our lives looking at our faults and trying to fix them. Worrying about how clean our house is when company is over when they don’t care. Worrying about our organization, or embarrassing ourselves or others. But to the people that matter to you and that you matter to them.

They don’t care if your dirty socks are on the floor when they come to visit.

They don’t care that you forget things, they go out of their way to remind you.

They don’t care that you laugh too loud, because they are the ones laughing with you.

There’s an old quote, something along the lines of we wear three faces.

1. The one we show the world

2. The one we show our close friends and family

3. And our true selves, the face we wear that only we as an individual know

I’d argue that number 1 is a perception. The face we show the world is who we are, but it’s more of a perception that’s other think of you. By how you dress, how you speak, how you act, and so on.

But that face isn’t yours, that’s the face that others see, and make their opinions off of.

The second and third faces are a lot more intertwined. We are ourselves, behind closed doors and in front of others.

Yes there are small things that we know only about ourselves that others don’t, but those who are close to you, understand your face.

And they like your face. They choose to be around you through your faults and talents.

No one in this world is perfect, but to own who you are, and to be self aware, is a step in the right direction.

To those that matter in my life, they know my faults, and they accept them and welcome them, and don’t waste your time with those that don’t. Those that see the face they make opinions on, not knowing who you really are.

You shouldn’t have to explain yourself to anyone, as those who matter, are the ones who can understand with no words.

I am unapologetically me.

-Lil Kevy